T.I.M.E.

I asked him what quantity of time is smaller than a moment? He said a second...I've had moments that have lasted for hours. That thought made me smile because I understood and could relate. Time can be a real bitch sometimes. Its always there but constantly moving. There are all these different kinds of time to quantify and qualify existence here. I thought up a new kind of time that I'd never known of before. I've experienced it but never labeled it as such. Cancer-time.

Cancer-time makes moments hours and hours into brief moments. Its not all bad though; those really bad moments in Cancer-time tend to blur together. One year in Cancer-time goes by really fast. There is so much to do that you don't even notice the moments turning into hours, days or weeks then finally a year. Cancer-time does not move in a steady pattern like normal watch-time. Its swirls, turns and flips back on itself making the whole thing more unsettling. When Cancer-time takes over, I feel like I've just gotten off a roller coaster; I'm steadying myself, fixing my fly aways and trying to find my footing.

At night it is peaceful and easy to go to sleep even when in Cancer-time. The problem is when you wake up. Usually regular time tells you it is 2am and that means there is 4 more hours to sleep until the day begins. When Cancer-time is in effect, that 4 more hours is a distant vision that is intangible. Sleep = peace = time used wisely. Cancer-time really fowls up this equation.

I guess the worst thing about Cancer-time is that there is no end. It is always moving in its erratic way making those under her spell feel continually unsettled. I wish there was a cure.